A lot of things happened during the weekend. I got another chance in the online job but the likelihood of failure is still high. I also realized that I have been friends with a certain person for almost 21 years. The memories we shared have been one of the most painful and most wonderful to me. All of what happened shaped who I am today, unfortunately not the best version. But then I am thankful that someone in the world knows the real me, including some of my secrets. And the last thing that happened was something I was expecting but not the way I anticipated. It confirmed my suspicions and the way it happened deflated my ego, made me realize how unimportant I am. I am now trying to accept the reality and whatever lies that may be said.
So I drowned my sorrows and feelings in copious amounts of coffee and Sia’s Fire Meets Gasoline (with Pedro Pascal in a lingerie ad!).